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Mea Culpa
02:50
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I've had my bones ripped clean
I felt the hope drain out of me
I've lost my mind too many times
But I'm finding a reason, to believe again
I was getting used to feeling used
When I had nothing left to lose
I pulled myself down all the time
Searching with nothing left, nothing left to find
I felt the weight on my chest
So tired of always being second best
But I saw who was standing in the way
The reflection of a person I never wanted to be
I was getting used to feeling used
When I had nothing left to lose
I pulled myself down all the time
Searching with nothing left, nothing left to find
With nothing left, nothing left to find
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Surrender
04:31
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I hide my secrets with paper and pen
I let my feelings drown
In a lake we used to swim in
Decorate all of my sins
I'm not the man you came here with
I'll burn a hole in your heart
Something that won't heal and scar
Something that won't heal and scar
Decorate all of my sins
I'm not the man you came here with
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Relapse. Repeat.
04:03
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I watched you lay there silenced by pain
I saw you ache, underneath your weight
I stood near and watched you cry
I knew things, weren't right
I turned my back on you
I'm not the son you asked for
So I lied to you just to save face
And I loved you
But it's just not the same
I watched the drugs and pain tear you apart
I begged you stop tearing out your heart
and I loved you
But it's just not the same
And I called out to you
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4. |
Empty Hands
04:16
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Waking up always felt like such a chore to me
Stumble out of bed
Avoid the chaos in my head
Spend the day drowning out my thoughts
Feeling lost and out of touch
Pick me up just to let me down
I never felt so low
Waiting for things to change again
And I know that they won't
Things are never as they seem
And I can't help what I can't feel
I think this time
I know this time
Try to sleep but the voices in my head won't let me
I'm reaching out to empty hands
For something more than this
I'll loosen my grip on everything
I'll never understand
Pick me up just to let me down
I never felt so low
Waiting for things to change again
And I know that they won't
Things are never as they seem
And I can't help what I can't feel
I think this time
I know this time
I'd rather be in the ground
Holding back the words I never said
Holding on for reasons I wish I didn't have
I'll never be okay
Or look at life the way you do
I just wanna let go
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5. |
Roots
04:44
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And I'm no different than the dust
Floating in the air
I'm aimless I'm drifting
I'm tired of picking up the pieces of my life slipping through my fingertips
And back onto the dirt where they are laid to rest and there's a space in my chest
Where something else belongs but I won't find it here and I won't look for long
Im tired of myself asking questions
I'll never figure out I'll never figure out
Don't figure me out cause I already tried
I'm lost inside my head again
I'm stumbling in the dark but I know I'll find my way back to the place where I last felt
The blood coursing through my veins and the beating in my chest I'll find some kind of meaning to this life
To fill the emptiness inside
I'm sorry mother I know you tried
And dear father I have opened up my eyes
Cause nothing beautiful can ever grow If the roots will never take hold
And I've got plenty of time to turn it all around to make it alright but I'm pushing 23
already empty inside but I promise I'll try to find myself one last time
Don't figure me out cause I already tried
I'm lost inside my head again
I'm stumbling in the dark but I know I'll find my way back to the place where I last felt
The blood coursing through my veins and the beating in my chest I'll find some kind of meaning to this life
To fill the emptiness inside
Don't figure me out
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6. |
As I Am
04:36
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I haven't slept in days
And the bags under my eyes
Carry more than you could know
More than you could ever fucking know
There's a pain in my back
From the weight of the world
Resting on my shoulders
As im only growing older
Take me as I am, it's all I'll ever be
You're not changing anything your not changing me
Look me in the eyes watch the colors fade
Like frost on your front porch I will slowly dissipate
Take a shot to kill the pain
Over and over all over again
One bottle down
I know it's getting late
I'm numbing my mind removing the weight
Of trying to get by day by day
It's with all good intentions
I'm trying to find a way
To rest my eyes under heavy lids
But I'm still in bed laying wide awake
Take me as I am, it's all ill ever be
You're not changing anything your not changing me
Look me in the eyes watch the colors fade
Like frost on your front porch I will slowly dissipate
I'm drowning all alone
I'm drowning no Im not coming home
(So please don't save me)
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Perception
02:40
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I've opened up my eyes
I swear that I'll try
Things will get better
And I think
Things will get better
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Pines Port Republic, New Jersey
We're an alternative emo band from South Jersey.
Steve Heckmann- Vox/Guitar
Joe Mcgarvey- Vox/Guitar
Pete Bariexca- Bass
DJ Passarelli- Drums
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